Flashlights.//

Jesus, Jesus
Holy and anointed One, Jesus
Jesus, Jesus
Risen and exalted One, Jesus
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/v/vineyard/holy_and_anointed_one.html ]
Your name is like honey on my lips
Your Spirit like water to my soul
Your Word is a lamp unto my feet
Jesus, I love You, I love You.


This song. 
One of those that I've probably heard over a 100 times... but it meant so much more this morning.
Especially the "Your Word is a lamp unto my feet" line.
In worship this morning I got an odd picture of this. Our feet were actually flashlights. 
(good luck walking, right? but that's beside the point...) 
We were on this dark path, walking easily with our flashlight feet, and that is what was lighting our way. 
God just spoke to me through that. 


How silly is it that we often try to walk with the light off? Or to put it in "real words"... God has given us His word to help us along in our life. Why do we (me definitely included) think that we don't need to really get into His word to walk straighter? 
crazy idea, right?
If someone were to give us tools to build a house, would we be so ignorant as to try to build without them? Or if we were given a car to drive, would we still say, "No thanks, I'd rather walk to the store that's a hundred miles away..."
stupid.


God has given us His word to help us.
It seriously has all the answers.
It was NOT just written for people that were alive when it was written.
IT'S FOR NOW.


Am I making the most of that? 
Am I really digging in? 
Am I trying to solve my own problems or am I looking to God and His Word to help guide me?


Are you?


Sidenote: I, of course, googled "flashlight feet" for a visual and "oddly enough" there were no images found. There are flashlight shoes though. 
So here's a visual for added....something:

and for you ladies:

Over Half.

I can't even comprehend that.
I'm over half-way through my wonderful YWAM experience.. Yesterday I paid the rest of my outreach fee and told my dad that I now feel super poor. His question to me was, "well would you still trade this experience for the money you've had to pay?"
Absolutely.
No doubt about it.
Don't regret it a single bit.
SO worth it.

It's been just amazing. God is continuing to use in AND out of class times to teach and challenge me on a TON of different things. Seriously, a ton.
I'm learning so much about myself, so much about people, and most importantly, so much about my Jesus. My relationship with Him is different than it's ever been, and so much more rewarding. I actually hear from him, which I thought at first was out of my reach. He speaks to me. Not audibly YET, but through His Word, through my friends here, and just giving me words and direction. It's been just super.

Last week was Spiritual Warfare week.
WOAH.
We had the Musicians DTS from the main base come and stay with us here up the mountain. So I had 12 girls in my room total. Twelve. So it was an intense, crowded week. But still enjoyable and filled with really good teachings and such. And I didn't fail to take an excessive amount of notes. Excessive. Basically the devil is just out to destroy relationships. He thrives on disunity.
THRIVES.
What power are we giving him? He can only take control as much as we let him.

This week is "Outreach Prep" week. Basically means that we are learning our dramas and such. I just finished learning the first one I'm in, "Facade." It's so sweet. I got thrown around a little in a fight (with a rug-burn to prove it) but it's a really powerful drama, or at least I think so. I'm in one other one and then "Puppets" which should be interesting. I have more time off this week, which I am grateful for. I could use some more down time. Although I, of course, want to be involved in more dramas because they are SICK. So good and so powerful!

Next week I have a half week and then I'm Delaware bound for a couple days. I am so stoked for that! I really can't wait to see my family and friends.
Woot-Woot.
really though, all my Delaware friends: please get up with me. You might have to come see me since I want to spend a LOT of time with my family. But still, I'd love to see you!

My heart is gonna explode here soon.

If I had only one sentence of an update available, it'd be this:
God is rocking my face off.

I feel like SO MUCH is happening that I'm having trouble organizing my thoughts... seriously. I keep wanting to ask what day it is. I haven't even really started being able to process everything that is being thrown at me. but it's alllll good. I'm still trying to, as best as I can, to soak it all up.

oh Jesus, help me.

I think I mentioned already that last week was relationships. So, of course, that gave me lots to think about. This week has been "The Person of Jesus", with the staff doing the teachings and woah, there is such an awesome, God-filled staff here. They are bringing it!
I find myself being continually challenged and wanting more and more of Jesus.

Pour it out, Lord.


What's new here? hmm. God is just lighting a fire inside me, making His Word come alive to me, and revealing Himself more and more.
Incredible.
and I'm loving it.


Outreach update: I'm headed to Thailand on Christmas Eve.
(Mom, I'll forward you the "itinerary")
and am SO stoked. Like, I can't even begin to explain.
I spent some time "learning" Thai phrases this morning. oh boy, it's going to be SUPER interesting. But, BRING IT ON.
Word of the day: สวัสดี
also known as: sa-wat-dee or in English, hello.
super fun, right?
yes, honey.